I’ve lost 3 friends that way.
3 friends I thought I’d hold onto forever.
But here you are.
Dancing away into the dark.
And I’ll keep my hands out and open.
I’ll reach and grasp for you.
But I’ve lost 3 friends this way.
Watched as their minds slowly slipped away from them.
Until they were someone I didn’t know.
So if you head down that road.
If you dip and dance out into the dark
Know I can’t follow you
I’ll be here with hands open and waiting.
But I cannot follow.
Last time I was here I was with you.
I wrote a poem about tasting the sky
And how it was the sweetest and bitterest thing I’d ever tasted.
But now it has been a year.
A year where I was chased up trees
And dropped down mine shafts.
And no matter where my shadows chased me
You weren’t there to catch me.
So I think I’ll remember you the way you were that night.
I’ll tuck every other memory of you away in the middle of a large book
And then I’ll give that book away to a donation shop.
I’ll let some other girl pick it up.
Some other girl too young or too delusional to realize the time bomb she is holding
I’ll keep that one perfect memory of sidewalk hugs and scratchy faces.
But all the others will be donated.
Donated and left to other girls.
And every time I come to this place I’ll think of tasting the sky
And the way I lost myself over you.
And when the sun sets, when planets I mistake for stars and stars I mistake for planets come out and shine down on that one perfect memory
I’ll wish things had been different.
But only in those golden moments.
Only our golden moment
Dear my lovely world,
I just want to be friends.
Please stop trying to dazzle me,
Please stop painting masterpieces in front of my eyes.
Please stop wrapping me up in sleepy rainy day hugs.
Please stop trying to win me over with the miracles of this planet.
Please stop with the sunshine kisses.
World, I’ve loved you for far too long,
Long enough for man to grow wings and circumnavigate the globe.
I love you but I’ve got to stop.
Because you’ve showed me so much greatness
But, love, you’ve hurt me so much too.
I’m not saying all the stubbed toes and fingers smashed in cabinets
Could ever equal hate strong enough to counter your love
But what of all the avalanches?
The tornados that you sent my way?
What of all the times you smashed me against the rocks?
I know you love me,
I can feel it in my bones
But what of all the destruction?
So I’m ending it.
Stop trying to make me fall in love with you again.
I’ve been there far too often.
It’s time I see someone else